To all the men i lusted before

Yes, i needed you.
Not you per say,
But just your body.
It was great while it lasted,
(to be frank, some wasn't even that good.)

I am sorry to leave.
I had to.
It was inevitable,
To go while i was still in control.
Control of my mind and my heart.

Feelings involved were such a blur.
Estascy and delusion,
There was no distinction.
I wasn't heartbroken in the end,
Just a twinge of regret.

Why i had to lust for you in the beginning.

Lust, such a beautiful feeling,
Such a poisonous word.