Unhappily depressed

I really do try. I do. Every morning, I wake up with the thought 'It's going to be a great day!', but by noon that particular thought has totally dissipated. Collapsed like a house of cards if you will.
And every thing else in the day goes completely downhill.

It is not as if I am unfamiliar with the concept of 'unhappiness', I used to be happily depressed. Yes, you heard me correctly, happily depressed. There is such a thing as happily depressed. But the key words here are 'used to'.

I also used to live by the advocate that happiness is in one's own hands, literally. You know, you control your own fate, your destiny, ya-da, ya-da.... NOT anymore! That has more or less been flushed down the toilet bowl, if you catch the drift. I really do not know why people around me just have to aggravate me. Do I have the sticker 'sucker' or 'piss me' pasted on my forehead?? Sometimes I really start to wonder.

I have not felt a spark of happiness for maybe the past 2 - 3 weeks. And to top it all off, I almost burnt down the house on Thursday night. I left the stove on while I went to bed. By the time it was discovered at 6 am, the whole pot was charred and the whole house stank!

I think I am the epitome of bad luck.