And so...

And so, here i am again... with nothing to blog about. My life is so uninterestingly predictable. Gosh... i really need some excitement. I am sitting here pondering.. how did it get sooooo boring?! I mean, hey, i used to the life of any party. My schedule was packed up to 2 weeks in advance, sometimes even up to 1 month! Now, it's like 'where-did-everyone-disappeared-to?'. Sigh. I guess we all have to grow up at some point of time. 'Commitments' is a scary word. It kills any kind of fun, seriously.

Yes, i am whining, grumbling, grousing.

My balance of being happily depressed is tipping over to the depressed side. And i am desperately trying to be indifferent to my feelings but i think i am fighting a losing battle. :(

Let me try to put it into mathematical terms for u.
Equation 1:
Not happy = Depressed = Need to shop = No money = More depressed

Equation 2:
Not happy = Depressed = Need to drink = Get wasted = More depressed

Equation 3:
Not happy = Depressed = Need to have senseless, emotionless sex = More depressed

Equation 4:
Not happy = Depressed = Dun feel like having any sex = More depressed
(Well, equation 3 & 4 swings both ways.)

Did i mention i like changes? Being unchangable kills my soul.....