The void

You know how it is when the feelings come in waves, surging, relentless, pounding again and again. Disappointment, resentment, indignation, discontentment, embitterment, frustration, anger, fury.

Then it comes to a point when you are so tired of it all.
When the only thing you want to do is to escape from all of it.
"Run." They whispered.
"Leave." They called softly.
"Fly!" They urged.
You close your eyes and hear them.
You imagine them welcoming you with open arms.
All you want to do is to give in to their temptations.
Tantalizing, beautiful, seductive things.

All you want is to feel nothing. Even if it means giving up feeling happy.

It's my birthday!

Yeah, that's right. :)

The photographer

From behind my lens, I noticed your pursed lips.
From behind my lens, I caught the twinkle in your eyes.
From behind my lens, I saw your coy smile.
From behind my lens, I watched your every nuance.
But not once did you regard me, from behind my lens.


Footnote: Actually I had this written a long time ago but it was just sitting in my word document. :P

In other news, my birthday is just around the corner. Not that I am stressing about it. Nah, I don't feel a thing about getting older (unlike some women). I'm cynical, to me it's just a step closer towards death. Bleh. Talk about HAPPY birthdays. Haha.

And oh I can't even find a nice new Gucci bag to buy so I guess I have to settle for this.

Gucci's newest perfume. Present anyone? :)


Coach launched their newest range of bags and I just love this new one! But I have too many gold bags so I had to force myself to give this a miss... 'Sad' just doesn't even cut it!

Wrong number

I wanted to make a call to a friend today but I dialled the wrong number.  Yes, I am one of those few endangered ones who still key in the phone number manually if it's a number that I deem important enough for me to remember (meaning: good friend).  Hey, cut me a break, I have not called her in ages so I keyed one of the numbers wrongly. 

Luckily, I realised my mistake after the third ring (friend's name did not show up on the handphone).  So I ended the called before the other party had a chance to pick up.  You know how it's like, u get a missed call from a strange number and then u call back only to have the other party say "Sorry ah, wrong number leh."  Irritating right?

So being the kind soul that I am, I sent an sms to the 'wrong number' with the following message: "Sorry, I called the wrong number. :)", thinking that after seeing the sms, the other party would not have to call back.  

Boy, was I wrong.  Two minutes later, I got a call from 'wrong number'.  Immediately, my first thought was to press the 'reject' button but I realised that it would be quite rude.  So, I did the inevitable, I answered the call.  

Wrong number:  "Hello, who's that?"

Me:  "Sorry, I pressed the wrong number just now."

Wrong number did not give up, continues with line of questioning.

Wrong number:  "Who's that please?"

Me:  "I called wrongly just now.  Sorry"

Wrong number:  "Who are u?"

Relentless.

Me:  "Wrong number lar!"

Wrong number: "Oh."

'Wrong number' must have thought I was some mysterious gal trying to play a prank on him.  Oh, did I forgot to mention 'wrong number' was a cute (sounding) guy?  :)

Darn!

Something bad happened today (okie, technically yesterday). Sigh. Seriously not happy right now. :(

Another atypical conversation

Was out having my said lunch with Friend on Friday and below was what transpired between the two of us. Friend was having some financial concerns, with the downturn and all the uncertainity, so i offered a suggestion (as usual).

Me: Go sell backside! I be your mamasan!

Me: I am very cheap, i charge only 20% commission!

Friend opens her eyes wide and gasped.

Fren: Wat??! I am the one doing all the work and u take 20% for nothing???

Me: Wat for NOTHING?? I get u clients okie! Not an easy job, okie. And i dun find u those cheapo clients, i find u those willing to pay alot.

Fren: Oh that's true. U got direct benefits.

Me: Ahbeden?? U think i so stupid? Find 1 client 1k versus find 10 $100 ones. Of cos take the 1k one rite?? Waste my time isit?! Save time can make more money rite?

Fren: WHO IN THE HELL WANS TO PAY 1K FOR A FUCK??!? Probably some loser who is extremely fat and ugly and can't find any gal to sleep with! Like a certain Mr Lim (I can't say who here cos i dun wanna kanna sued!).

Me: Aiyah, nevermind then. Just put paper bag over his face! The draw '$1000' on the paper bag! Hahahahaa...

Fren: I think i rather put paper bag over my own face cos cover his face still can see the body!

And she proceeds to stick out her tongue in disgust.

Me: Wat if i can find u one who is not fat and ugly but very handsome?

Fren: Then he's probably a psycho who will tie you up, whip and torture you! U mean u dun mind?

Me: I rather take the fat one over the psycho any day.