Go on.. laugh...

Since it's a Monday... okie, it's Tue morning now... I shall entertain ya all with something work related... Enjoy!




If it doesn't work out... try this..


But if u are...

U can always....

Shopping

See, see, see

Grab, grab, grab

Queue, queue, queue

Buy, buy, buy

Charge, charge, charge

Swipe, swipe, swipe

Sign, sign, sign

Bills, bills, bills

Pay, pay, pay

Broke, broke, broke

Boredom kills

I was sitting on the couch this afternoon stoning and staring into empty space when this popped into my head. I dub thee as 'Boredom Kills'.


Boredom Kills
So damn bored...
Nothing to watch,
Nothing to read,
Nothing to do.

I wish i had Heroes, season 2,
To watch.
Or Harry, (not the prince),
Potter that is.
Or Louis AND Daniel,
Now that's censored.

Mind numbing, stupor inducing, breath choking.
Spiders, spiders spinning cobwebs.
I can literally feel my brains
Turning into mush.

Object of desire - item 2,269

Wow! I mean look at this car.... if this was a man, he would be absolutely, completely, utterly DELICIOUS! Everyone droooooool now. Ok, ok, i know i am a gal.. i know i am not supposed to go gaga over a car... BUT seriously, LOOK at it. Oh gosh, if any guy owns this beautiful baby, i would be willing to do IT in the open, topless not withholding! Haha! Yah yah, i admit.. part of the allure is becos it's OPEN TOP! Sex on wheels has never looked so hot, yes, i concur.

I present to u, the new Maserati Gransport Spyder! Even saying the name is soooo damn sexy... ohmigod.. i am getting such a high! Wahahaaa...

It's a miracle!

I had this freaking back ache for almost 3 weeks now. Every time i attempt to move, a sharp searing pain shoots up from my lower back. (No, i din see a doc, nor visit TCM, i am a great believer in self-cure, yah rite.) Trust me, it's so damn fucking excruciating!

This morning, however, wonders of wonders, when i woke up, the pain was gone! Ok, not totally but somewat gone. It's no longer an agonizing, unbearable pain, it's now just a dull ache. It's a miracle, i tell u! Magnificent, amazing, brilliant miracle! Must be something i did rite last nite. I wonder wat it was??!! Hmmm... Maybe the alcohol? Nah. Probably not. Hahaha!

U know wat this means? I can finally dance again! Yipee!

The deep abyss

It suddenly hit me as i was lying in bed sleepless (again) why i am feeling the way i am. I need my freedom! Yes, i am trapped, caged, ensnared, imprisoned. Like a bird without wings, a lion without teeth, no way to turn, no place to run. That's why i am so down. Each day i feel like i am falling into a deep abyss and just when i think there is no more lower i can go.. i fall further. It's like a hole with no bottom.

I seriously NEED to go wild, crazy, do something different, outrageous, shocking, extreme and out of the ordinary. Wouldn't anyone save me please?

Footnote: I am drinking as i am writing this.. apparently, i am too high to think straight now.. so it will have to end here.. i mean the post. :P

Footnote2: Someone told me i spelt something wrongly.. haha...

So damn freaking tired...

Gesh. I can't remember when was the last time i felt this tired... exhuasted ... weary... drained.. dead beat... pooped... u get the idea rite?

I am sick of pretending everything is fine and dandy. Going on as if nothing is wrong. Candy-coated, suger-frosted, rose-tinted, cheerful, joyful, blissful life. Cos it's not. Ok, u might say 'Hey, not everything IS about u, u know?' And u know wat's my reply to that? "Yeah, IT is!'

When i start to actually THINK, i feel this way. Fucking depressed. That's why nowadays, i prefer not to think. That way i can just feel nonchalant, indifferent, detached. At least, it doesn't hurt that much. It's called self-preservation. It's something i know very well. I started building walls since i was 18. Walls are fantastic stuff, u know? They offer protection and solitude. The higher the walls, the better the sanctuary and security. I was kept sane by the walls i built. Solid, thick, tall walls.

Depression is my constant companion. Sometimes he's just sitting there in a corner quietly, observing and waiting. Sometimes he's out on the prowl, stalking, lurking, silently but surely. And other times he's out in full force accompanied by his best fren, Rage. Those are the times when u surely do not want to piss me off. Recently however, Depression and Rage have been out having a ball. Unfortunately. For everyone around me.

I do wish that i am just a rock or a cloud or a leaf or something... Wat is the point of being alive anyway? I mean to exisit becos u are exisiting? Or to really live your life? Well, in my case, I am just exisiting cos i exisit... it's sad rite? Well, i always say, i didn't ask to be born! But then i am too gutless to end my own life.